Part 2

To kick something off, I have picked a fascinating and unheeded topic to draw something up in the following note. I have tried my best to eschew the confusion and misinterpretation between “nature” and “demeanour”.

I have came across many folks who out of the blue come to a head. The reason is their deportment. Appropriately, what we believe as our nature and hesitate to change might portray our self as a stubborn and arrogant asshole. Unfortunately, the ludicrous part in it is that the person who inferred this in us has stuck himself unintentionally in this dilemma. Why because, he deliberately spurned to answer “why is it so?” To buttress my opinion, let me sketch a clearer picture for you.

Think about the young chap who is a victim of the sheer parental pressure. The power of discrimination between black and white has been snatched from his mind and molded in a way that can retrieve only thrusted notions in trying times. He feels boozing is sordid. Had it been the case where he is really cautious about the statutory remarks, that cajoled his conscience to refrain from having such habit, it’s fair enough. But when he is left with full liberty, he start to be carried off the feet .Is it merely the influence of bad blood or the adrenaline rush to relish worldly pleasures??? [ :? ]

It‘s paradox!!!! You conceit to be of well natured when you are in the shadow of well-beings. The peculiar thing of flesh and blood is that their unaltered .What change with circumstances is our notion and vision about the same thing, which reflects through conduct and attitude.

Think about an Indian girl who dwells in a so called “orthodox” society. She believes herself to be a conservative girl because of being curbed by the social ethics, customs and taboos. Ask her for an out, you will get battered and bruised. [:)] She thinks, it’s her nature just because she doesn’t want to get into hot water. Contrary to it, when she has given the carte blanche to lead her own life, she hounds behind the western culture. Ask her the same question now, I bet you will be in cloud nine. Her nature didn’t alter over the time, what changed is her notion. She always fancied the same dream, but amidst the neighbors. She discriminates between people who might invite derision to relationship and who not. Why so obdurate??? Why to whistle in the dark?? If you grapple in this imbroglio, give yourself chances till you put two and two together. Hence the epitome is, it’s not nature, what you are urged to alter but your conduct as per your heart says.[:)]

Colloquial Ideology

As a tyro,I have decided to keep this note simple, lucid and comprehensible. The answers, consequences and conclusions are merely my opinions which readers might find incompatible with their own.

If you have trifle feelings for the folk, try to give an iota of importance and care to him. Ask your conscience the propriety of your behavioral attributes. Brood and then prioritize your notions after introspection. Answer these:

1. Does it really matter to think always about the relationship or companionship? Aren’t we mature enough to understand each other? Are we so cynical to be captious?? Should I always compromise even if I am flawless?

The answer is not “always”. I consent that we dwell in such a milieu that demands us to remain circumspect and cautious. But again the question rises “till when?” Don’t we have the guts to face the truth?? Am I literally coward to keep my feelings obscure and enshroud? Am I not sure about my self? Am I really impetuous even to take my own decision?? It’s all that we never gave a thought about it. It matters!!!! Even if you don’t want sometimes you need to.... But yes, till everything is mutual. You can’t sustain in a relationship where decisions are biased and you are urged to compromise for every altercation. But again “Am I so intransigent “? Can’t I sacrifice just because I want it!! Am I too incompetent to settle such goofy issues? Will it exploit my weakness if I compromise? The answer is again not “always“. It’s an interminable loop. Are you perplexed and baffled now?????? :)

Even if you bask a bit the time you spend together, expect it to be ephemeral. Remember, Nicest things are bestowed on you till you value it .At times you perhaps pass by the better half of your life ignored and stranded but the time you realized , its been too late. Every individual is special as he/she entertain his/her own ethics and idiosyncrasies. You develop a positive intuition in your first sight towards beauty ,that eventually develops into infatuation and gradually wheedle you to know more and more about the interior beauty . You try to remain alert and cognizant about everything you do. If you really cherish these moments when you are away, unnoticeably and unknowingly you have fallen in love with it. So the time you took to develop such stringent feeling might dwindle in the same way unintentionally and undesirably even in much shorter time if you remain unconcerned. Now the questions those gonna be shoot at you must be handled with kid gloves.

2. Am I done???Is it all that I wanted to share with others or tried to convey? Am I clairvoyant or posses any paranormal power to understand things those are beyond my perception? I reckon right thing happens at right time. Then why so hurry??? At times I believe as if things are going in favor of me but other time it’s different. Sometimes I feel as if he/she is close to my heart where as its antithetical some other time when I detest him/her. Why such slue? Am I going too philosophical now??? Am I so nettled and enervated with life?

Uff, so many questions!!!!! It’s getting irrelevant now. The answer is perhaps I am mawkish. Right things come in your way at right time but sneak unnoticed. The swerve in my mind might be instantaneous but if I look back and join those dots emblematic to my past blissful moments, I cherish it with smile. So again, do I mean to say that you must remain optimistic? Do you need to wait till opportunities knock at your door??

to be continued ….